angel or devil?

i promise, i will keep up with this thing

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:01:49 GMT

Okay, there are many reasons why I should keep up with my livejournal.
1. a healing tool
2. a venting tool
3. a time occupier (sp?)

okay so maybe there aren't a lot of reasons, but i think they are valid enough right??

this might be a huge update, or it could be a small update, let me prepare you. lets start with the general overview....

I hate not being in school. I feel like a lazy ass and I really really and I mean really hate Uxbridge with every bone in my body. I don't think that I can explain to you in words about how much I loath it here. I was all set in North Carolina, everything was more or less perfect. I had my house, I had school, I had my friends, I had my dog, I had my job, and most importantly, I had my independence. Coming home makes me feel like I don't have any of that. It's all pretty much bullshit. I live under my parents roof which means my parents rules. They really aren't that bad thinking about them, I am just soooo use to the independence that I had. Makes me super sad. Really the only good thing about being home is Steve. Lately it has been tough. I feel like I am doing everything wrong with him. He may not think so and it may just be my own issues in my own head, who knows. He has gotten genuinely mad at me 4 times in two weeks. It's all over little things, but those little things are a big deal to me. I know he loves me with all of his heart, I just wish i could make him understand some of the things going on in my head. Like last night, he had two girls in his room. It wasn't the two girls that were bothering me (despite popular belief) it was more the fact that he could have those girls. In my head, I instantly think to myself that those girls are probably great, beautiful, skinny, etc. Why would he want to settle with a girl that is broken?? I guess i am not broken, but after everything, i sure do feel like it. Whatever though, I guess that is what counseling is going to be for. Which brings me to my next thought.... GAH COUNSELING! I am not excited about it one bit. I have pushed back the appointment 4 times already. I am scared and I feel like I dont have anyone to hold my hand. I really need someone to hold my hand. Maybe Emily will come with me tomorrow since i am going with her to teeth doctor. Who knows. PS for all who is reading, I am not going to counseling because I am crazy. If you know why, than you know why. PERIOD EXCLAMATION POINT.

Today I did see Emily. Which was FANTASTIC! I felt like such a bad friend after her surgery that I didnt go see her, I actually felt like the worst friend ever. She told me today that she cried about it. Which isn't so good. Things really did come up, but after today, i know she still hearts me. YAY!

Also some good news, I finally quit Panera. After working for the company for 4 ish years, its about time. Too much drama has happen within panera (mainly the NC one) to have even one positive thought about it. What are you going to do?? I do feel like I have a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. I did however get my internship back. I dont know when that will be starting, hopefully soon. My boss is in New York, so when she gets back, maybe she will call me?? hmmm we will see. I am still going to apply to other jobs if stuff falls through. I have just enough money to get through the holidays. It's going to be a skimpy Christmas for everyone. Probably everyone but Steve. It worries me because his mom said he gives bad gifts. hahaha If i get a bad gift then for his 21st birthday he is getting didily squat. Maybe me in a bow!! hahaha he would totally hate that gift.

I have just had coffee overload. Me and a venti white mocha frappaccino with raspberry light with half skip (yes i know a mouth load) finally dated like WOAH. I have the heartburn the prove it.

I am super excited because Jon called to tell me that there is a concert on the 27th. It is going to be Sevendust and Nonpoint in the Palladium. YAY, but I am kind of iffy about it. Im not going to lie, its been forever and day since I have seen the boy. I am definitely going, its just going to awkward... until we get squished. Well my figures are getting cold. so I am done.

Jenn xoxo

ohh shit

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 00:44:44 GMT

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in. (Maybe.)
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. If you don't, bad things will happen to cute little bunnies and puppies.

la di da

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 00:05:08 GMT

my you give me strength....

today was a good day. i went to the mall with leslie. i wanted to get some books on tape, but they are way way way too expensive. guess i am screwed in oprah tomorrow. maybe not, we will see. i went to the cook off. of course we didnt win, didnt expect us too.

i wish i could hug you

this week has over all been a good week.

couple weeks will be delta sig formal, kind of excited

<3Jenn

OHH LORDY

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 19:37:46 GMT

okay now ya'll can be jealous. I AM GOING TO LIVE IN AUSTRALIA FOR A YEAR!!!!

<3Jenn

hmm

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:58:57 GMT

so i have rotc dining out thingy. pretty much its a formal, minus the music, minus the drinking, and minus the fun?? we will see what happens. atleast i will look hott in my dress. we had greek games this morning, it started to storm so the cancelled it. ohh well, i didnt get to be the house/anchor in tug-o-war. maybe i will work it when it is rescheduled. i have a test in global on monday. i really need to study. that is what my sunday is dedicated to. i am over being at school. i am sick of doing school work. maybe because it is starting to get warmer outside. it is hard to be stuck in a class room when it is 80 degrees outside. welp, i need to go shower.
<3Jenn

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 15:29:52 GMT

okay so i am sitting in the library. want to know something sad, i couldnt figure out to spell library. i had to look on the wall. well i am extremely bored out of my mind. it is mandatory for me to be here because of stupid english class. GRRRRR i hate this class like woah.

news of this week:
monday link week started (week before initiation) our little zeta babies will be sisters soon.

i decided to put everything on the back burner until i pick up my grades in oprah and global.

i quit my job yesterday... what a good time that was

jim was an asshole to me yesterday, what else is new. i do wish he would die in the hands of satan real soon. i never get mad at him but ooo i was seeing red. what pissed me off more was that he was happy to make me mad. he was like this is great, you never get mad at me. it takes a lot to make me mad. grrr

went with eric to a soccer game. he is a good guy.

im going to lie, i was kind of a bitch yesterday. definitely a little snappy. sorry rachel, i know i snapped at you about airband.

mick came over last night and i fell asleep. i am sorry to him for not being a good entertainer.

i miss home like woah. i know the second i get there, i am going to want to leave.

i decided i am going to travel a lot this summer if anyone is up for it. i want to go to upstate new york to visit rachel, long island to visit keith, illinois to visit eric, and north carolina for obvious reasons.

i have been talking to jon a lot late. hmmmmm dont know what to make out of that.

i miss tayla, and i want to get drunk with her.

i want to see sevendust GRRRR. upside though, i am going to see greenday april 20th

weird story, i got a $200 dress for free. some girl that i dont even know that well decided she wanted to buy it. weird. many thanks to her.

saturday i am going to the ROTC formal with young gary. he is a good guy

now i must leave you, dont cry. i have to walk back to the dorm.

LOVE

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 21:38:41 GMT

APPEARANCE:
Hair: brown
Eyes: green
Height: 5'2"
Weight: im a fat ass

STYLE:
clothing: jeans and a polo
bodyart: two tattoos

RIGHT NOW:
wearing: yoga pants and polo
listening to: apple auto sales commercial
thinking of: why am i so uncomfortble with being me
feeling: sad

LAST THING YOU:
bought: food, surprise surprise
read: oprah book
watched on tv: michael jackson special

EITHER / OR:
club or houseparty: houseparty
beer or cider: neither, shots
drinks or shot: shots or mixed drinks
cats or dogs: dogs or cats, i like them both
single or taken: taken, i am a relationship type of girl
pen or pencil: pencil, much smoother to write with
gloves or mittens: mittens
Food or candy: definitely snacks
cassette or cd: cds
coke or pepsi: COKE

WHO DO YOU WANT TO:
kill: right now?? jim
get really wasted with: hands down... tayla
tickle: no one, i hate to be tickled so i wont tickle
look like: lindsey lohan
be like: myself
avoid: being sad

LAST PERSON
talked to: eric
hugged: sully
instant messaged: eric
kissed: eric on the forehead before i put his drunk ass to bed

WHERE DO YOU
eat: RDH
cry: by myself
wish you were: at the gym instead of snacking

HAVE YOU EVER...
Dated one of your best friends? yes
loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yes
Drank alcohol? yes
Done drugs? yes... just pot
Broken the law? only a little bit
Run away from home? attempted a few times
Broken a bone? my ass once
Played Truth Or Dare? yes
Flashed someone? yes
Mooned Someone? YES
Kissed someone you didn't know: yes
Come close to dying? nope

WHAT IS:
The most embarrassing CD in your collection? spice girls
Your bedroom like? my room is dark red and back with light linnens, its hott
Your favorite thing for breakfast? butter milk biscuit with butter and jelly
Your favorite Restaurant? Alacante

holy f-ing shit its a GD update

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 06:14:18 GMT

dont get to excited yall, its just a survey

A - Accent: to the north i have a southern accent and to the south i have a yank accent. i am having an identity crisis.
B - Breast size: 36 C/D
C - Chore you hate: Dishes
D - Dad's name: Gary (dare i ever type that assholes name... fucking douche)
E - Essential make-up: eye makeup. any and all eye makeup
F - Favorite perfume: dont attack me on this, but the curious perfume. i know i hate britney spears too!
G - Gold or Silver?: silver
H - Hometown: Uxbridge Ma
I - Insomnia: lately, all the time. i got 7 hours last week.
J - Job title: la estudiante
K - Kids: haha no way, colleen aka satan makes me want to throw my uterus into oncomming traffic as it is.
L - Living arrangements: on the sorority floor on campus ZETA TAU ALPHA
M - Mum's birthplace: milford i believe
N - Number of apples you've eaten: sadly, none today
O - Overnight hospital stays: none... it was close this year. i dont know if you could consider six hours in the hospital in the night really an overnight stay.
P - Phobia: rejection and loneliness
Q - Queer/straight: Straight
R - Religious affiliation: baptized catholic, but now, i am my own thing
S - Siblings: two sisters. colleen and elizabeth
T - Time you wake up: lately i cant sleep. go to bed at like god awful times and wake up the second is up. its rough. i dont know what my deal is
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: a dark black purple thing
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: asparagus... i kind of like veggies though.
W - Worst habit: being overly critical of other people
X - X-rays you've had: ribs, arms, ass (yes i broke the smallest bone in my body), legs. hey if you put all that together, you can make one whole person.
Y - Yummy foods you make: hands down... shnitzle. i can make a mean steak
Z - Zodiac sign: scorpio

well that is all for tonight, i am pretty blah and such, but what are you going to do. i think i season anxiety disorder because lately i am a mess. atleast no one here knows that. i hide it pretty well. i guess just because you are wearing a smile, it doesnt mean you are actually smiling. i missed north carolina over break. i am happy here and dont ever want to leave. i just wish i could pick up people from home and bring them back here, but i cant. i am in love with the dirty south! well i am off to bed because i have an early class.
<3
Jenn

holy update

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 20:42:28 GMT

yeah so i am moving out next week to the sorority floor. honestly, i dont know if i am looking forward to it. all my friends are here in the suites. i dont know, we will see what will happen.

jenny and rachel are here. i mean it is kind of weird to have jenny here because i really havent seen her too much since she moved out. and rachel moved out last week and i can already feel us not really talking to much. i feel distant from everyone, well besides the boys. i think that is why it is going to be so hard for me to move. those boys in 220 (mick, pat and possible wes) are who i feel comfortable with. as we are speaking, the two girls are in my room and i felt uncomfortable enough to lock myself in my room. what the hell. it shouldnt be like this. i just want to find one person, male or female, i dont care, who i can connect with. a person i could call my bestfriend. the closest i have to that is cheraya and she is in washington fucking DC. im done trying. if they have a problem, i wish they would just tell me to my face instead of just getting quiet every time i walk into the room.

upside, i am getting a puppy.

im done
~jenn

read this, its really cute

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 05:21:29 GMT

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had. * What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?* People live, but people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow , you would be in my heart!!! Would I be in yours? If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send this back. You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you if you consider them a friend as well. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and .. always will.. I LOVE YOU!!!!

grrr

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 06:05:14 GMT

i thought running away would end all problems. i guess i was wrong.

"Ender"

Here I am beside myself again.
I'm torn apart by words that you have said.
And all in all,
I know we're falling apart.
Where did you run to so far away?
Here we are to sing you a song.
There you are asleep against the window pane
just like always.
You said you like to hear the rain sometimes.
And all I can do is tell you the truth.
And oh, my eyes will tell you the same.
Here we are to sing you a song.
There you are asleep again.
Grasp our hands together,
we feel we are one result.
And here we are to sing you a song.
And there you are asleep again...

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 04:01:18 GMT

i feel like i should update..

lately, i feel so lonely. everyone gets to go home on weekends. i cant. i read everyones profile today and it says something along the lines of "in boston for the parade" and what not. god damnit i want to be in boston for the parade. no i cant though, i decided to go live in north carolina. oy. i miss home, and my friends at home. believe me, i love my friends here and my people here but sometimes it is just not the same. i miss panera and i miss jon. i dont know why, but that poor boy has my heart. i wish he didnt because i am awfully crazy. i am so fickle when it comes to our relationship.
last night i had to go to the hospital. what an adventure that was. we were there for literally 6 hours. whatever though, i feel better today. i was dehydrated and i have the stomache flu. they stuck me with and IV and called it a night. i am pissed i had to miss my new member retreat with my girls. i heard it was some fun. wish i could have gone :o(.
i wish boston schools werent so expensive. i would definitly go to one, but they have to be $40,000 a year. who has that type of money. even though i would apply for financial aid, the government is convinced that my family makes enough to support that kind of bill. stupid government. stupid school. i dont know why we have to have a government that is based all on money. grrrr!
i am done updating. i dont feel like typing anymore.

:o(

~JENN

so lets talk business...

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 01:07:17 GMT

it has been a rough couple of weeks let me tell you. between school, jon, sorority, and roomates, i have been going crazy. lets start on one subject at a time.

1. School: I love it here. It is so amazing! The weather is perfect and the people are great. I pretty much heart everyone that is here. Classes are another thing. I hate going to class. i have such a hard time getting up monday wednesday and friday for my 9am class. it is psychology and i have unlimited amount of absences. There is no worry there and i am doing tres bein i mean muy bein in the class. Then i have sociology after psychology. i got a 64 on the first test, but he did scale it up to a 70 soi guess that is okay. dr sharpe is a god awful teacher. it is interesting information, but he really bores the heck out of me. on top of that, he makes fun of people from the north so that means i already dont like him. my last class of these three days is english. I HATE ENGLISH. i mean i am a really good writer and i am rocking the class, i just hate writing essays. I REALLY HATE WRITING ESSAYS. Now for tuesday and thurday.... First i have college algebra. I am doing really well in the class, the problem is, i hate the man that is teaching it. I just woke he spoke some damn english. He is from africa.... enough said. i cant understand a bloody word he says. it is a good thing i am really good at math. Then i have spanish. now the class is better. the first couple weeks of school we had a horrible teacher. his teaching skills were seriously lacking, then he got sick and we got a new teacher. This guy is a tough teacher but he is teaching me a lot. Looks like i am going to pass spanish after all. the first test that was given by the first teacher, i got a 68 (that is good considering i only did about a quarter of the test). I just took a test for the new teacher and i think i did amazing. we will see though, i dont want to get my hopes up.

2. Jon: This is such a touchy subject with me. i dont really like talking about it. we have been talking again and that is great. I dont know what i am looking for out of the relationship. I dont know what i want or what i need. He is such a great guy, it is just so hard this far away. we are taking everything one day at a time. when i go home next weekend, i will be seeing him. we will see what happens

3. Sorority: THIS IS MAKING ME NUTS. i dont know what to think about it. I love sami (the girl i want to be my big sister) the other girls though i dont feel like i am connecting with them. i went through two weeks of crown sisters, that i didnt get to know at all. i just feel like they made no effort. I promised catherine (my pledge mom) that i would give it a few more weeks. i thiknk it all depends if i get sami as my big or not. i just wouldnt feel comfortable with anyone else. we will see about that too. Everything seems so up in the air.

4. roomates: i love my roomates to death, but every little think is making me crazy. between melissa and her crying about us in the sorority and the tension between the other two roomates. i dont blame melissa for being sad about us needing to move into the floor, it was like she was crying for weeks. some days i cant take it. I love her though, its just hard living with your best friends. Jenny is moving out on wednesday. its like she has changed, even since i have known her. Ever since she has joined sigma kappa, she hasnt been the same. that is the downside to the sorority thing, it changes people. She is still a great girl, it is just the sorority is her way out. i guess it is easy for her to just get up and get out. I couldnt do that. I have to think about the other people that are being effected. Maybe i am just sick of being in the room. I love that i get to go to our RA's room. I hang out with wes, mick, and pat. It is easier for me to connect and feel comfortable with guys. everything is so drama free with them. I dont know. I know my roomates are going to read this. i hope that they understand where i am comming from. eh, hope it doesnt cause any more tension.

Lately i have been think about my dad. This bugs me a lot. if you know my dad, the you know what i am talking about. Sometimes i am acting like him. I find that i am very good at running away from problems instead of trying to solve them. I hate that quality about me. i mean i like to talk through problems, but when they start to get worse or drawn out, i run away. grrrrrrrrrrrr i hate him. i hate him.

Well thats it for tonight, this is proably the longest entry EVERRRRRRR

~Jenn

i want to come home

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 15:50:05 GMT

72 days till jon

has you heart ever hurt?.....

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 04:55:11 GMT

.... well mine does. tonight i broke up with jonathan. it is really hard to hold myself back from picking up the phone and calling him. its really hard for me not to say just kidding. i know if i did this, it will only hurt more. i know there is going to be those nights where i call him and he wont pick up and i just listen to his voicemail. there are going to be those nights where i just want to hear his voice. i guess that is normal right? well even if it isnt, thats how i just am. i hope he doesnt think that i dont love him. i hope he doesnt think i am doing this to hurt him. if i didnt do it now, a month from now i would be. he said that he is expecting a call in december (when i get home from school for break). december is soon enough. i am going to start a count down. i promised him , and there is no way in hell i am going to break it. i hope i didnt make the biggest mistake of my life... i seriously hope everything will be okay. maybe it will, maybe it wont. we will see
~jenn

my love profile... hmmm

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 15:50:22 GMT

Scorpio - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted

Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover

You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in

Your negative traits:

You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover

You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship

You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on

Your ideal partner:

Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task!

Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed.

Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis.

Your dating style:

Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date.

Your seduction style:

Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real.

You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves

A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are

Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you*

Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - your best bet at screening out untrustworthy people

Best color to attract mate: Dark red

Best day for a date: Tuesday

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woah two updates in one week

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 15:45:53 GMT

Welp, it is like 1130 am and i have class at 1230. i have some time to kill. i am listening to finch and i like it more and more as i listen through the whole CD. i never listend to it all the way through. oy i have so much to do today. i have class from 1230-320 and then i have mandatory study hall and thennnn i am going to the gym. after that i will come back to the room and veg out. i got my hair down yesterday! i am offically the closest i have ever been to my natural hair color. it is indeed fantabulous. uggggg i am so tired too. last night someone put a condom on our door. real mature, honestly. all my thoughts today are eradic. i cant help these things. i am going from one subject to another... hmm maybe i have terets in my thoughts.

this weekend is going to be a rough weekend also. friday i have something but i dont remember what it is. saturday i have courage night/day. we are going to hand out breast cancer awareness stuff. saturday night that is a kegger. sunday at 12:15, i have the big little event. we are going to do a ropes course. speaking of which, my crown sister hasnt called me. well isnt that a damn shame, im cute as pie (only rachel would get that one). then after the event i have an ice cream social with the alumni, a chapter meeting, and a new memeber meeting. oy this sorority thing is going to take up about 10 hours of my day on sunday.

ugg, i just want to my held, kissed, loved. i miss all the perks of being home, aka jonathan. ohh wow how convient, the next song was letters to you by finch, and when i typed miss, they said in the song "I miss you" ahh well. i cant wait to go home in october to see him. seriously ten minutes at home would get rid of all my loneliness. just a hug, thats all i ask. maybe jenny will give me a hug... hmmmm guess i am going to have to wait to get out of the shower... lol

~jenn

VIVA LA UPDATE

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 23:00:49 GMT

Welp, I probably have a lot to update about, but i am just tooooo lazy to type it all out. I am still here at school and i am have a wonderful time. i am in a sorority now, ZTA (zeta tau alpha for all you that dont know the greek alphabet). They are really sweet girls. I am going out tonight with Sami to taco bell. I love her because i havent had taco bell in over a month! BLASTEMPHY. i want her to be my big sister, thats how cool she is. i just found out today that my spanish teacher wont be teaching for the rest of the semester. OHHH THERE IS A GOD! he was a really nice guy, but man he wasnt teaching me a darn thing because he doesnt know english very well. He is from the ivory coast and knows five languages, of those five, he knows english the least. needless to say, i am quite happy. I also got a printer for my computer today. not only does it print, but it scans and it copies. i love it and its soooo perrrrty. ohh and guess what else!? it matches. everything i own now is silver (from my phone to my printer).

I seriously heart my roomates. they are awesome. i am glad that i didnt end up with some evil girls that hate the school. we are all friends and we all hang out. i would post some pictures but i cant figure it out. ohh well if you want to see my pictures go to: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/euphoric_angel2004/my_photos it has all the pictures of my girls oohh and keith!

in other news, jon and i are having a rough time but i am sure things will work out. i love him with all my heart. things are just tough. I am leaving it at that because i dont like to talk about it.

~Jenn

tired

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 04:09:14 GMT

oy i am tired! i rushed today and it was fantastic. i like the chi omegas and the alpha delta pi. we will see though. BE PROUD I UPDATED

why does it have to hurt so bad

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 01:23:20 GMT

My heart is broken in two. why did i have to run away? this is getting all to hard. ::sigh::

~Jenn

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 03:38:24 GMT

i can never think of a good subject title. so, school is so far so good. i really like it here, besides the fact that it is hot allllll the time. rumor has it the the weather is really cold back at home. jonathan says that it was forty seven degrees the other night. right now outside at like 11ish it is 75. most of the time i love it here, but there are some moments when i miss home. i miss home because i miss my jonathan. i miss home because i miss my aunt. i miss some people, i dont miss the situations at home. i dont miss the town, the drama and everything else that goes along with uxbridge.

boys are fucking gay, especially boys that live next door to me. they defaced our door. i hate douche bags grrr

welp i am off to hanging out in the room

~JENN

I AM FINALLY ONLINE!!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 21:05:38 GMT

hehe its about time. I am also in charlotte north carolina. I start classes tomorrow. my schedule consists of:
math 1100
spanish 1100
psycology 1101
sociology1101
english 1101

i have tons to talk about but i really to feel like typing it out.

~JENN

im fucking sick of this bullshit

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 04:14:14 GMT

seriously i am. i leave tuesday and the drama still ensues. rich is seriously fucking pissing me off. all of a sudden one day, he falls of the face of the earth. i went from seeing him everyday at work and hanging out and stuff. to having him quit his job and me never talking to him again. shit like that pisses me off. why cant girls have just normal guy friends. i just dont get it. why can i have my love mcdove jonathan who i love dearly, but not have a guy friend. not because of jon, but because other guys cant handle that. i miss the days when i was really good friends with merrissa. i could just go over to her house, even if she wasnt there, and just hang out with the boys. we would just sit and watch a movie. why cant anyone else do that. is that too much to ask. geeze boys get passed the age of 12 and its sex or nothing. i miss the days when i was known as one of the guys sometimes. we would have so much fun. i just dont understand. on a lighter note, my love is taking me to boston tomorrow. i hope it doesnt rain. i am excited and it should be a fun time for sure. i hope to buy some cute stuff :o)

EEEKKK

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 02:41:48 GMT

yesterday i went out randomly and got another tattoo! it was great fun, but i promised a bunch of people that this was the last one. When i get my digital camera from my love, i will post it so everyone can see. its on my left hip and its a shooting star. its cute.

stuff for school

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 14:04:34 GMT

okay so i have this crazy list of stuff that i am going to bring to school. if anyone can think of anything else it would be fantastic. i leave for north carolina in like a week so i need to start packing now. THANKS Y'ALL :oP

THE LIST
- shirts (all the varieties)
- pants
- sweatshirts
- skirts
- shampoo
- conditioner
- make up
- socks
- underwear
- hair straightener
- deoderant
- bras
- underwear
- body wash
- loofa
- razors
- hair brush
- tooth brush
- tooth paste
- tampons
- contacts
- solutiong
- glasses
- cell phone and charger
- belt
- laundry detergent
- fabric softener
- pillows
- pillow cases
- sheets
- down comforter
- douvet cover
- television
- disk man
- CD's
- pillows (mooshi and others
- extra blanket
- cd player (the one I won)
- cd booklet holder
- hair dryer
- trash can (x2)
- bathroom cleaning supplies
- footwear (ie. sneakers and flip flops)
- pictures
- camera
- medusa lamp (mom bought it)
- books
- back pack
- gameboy and games
- hangers
- pens
- pencils
- notebooks (spiral)
- bath towels
- dustpan and brush
- shower supply holder
- husband
- clothes hampers and basket
- feather bed topper
- jon and jenn picture
- lamby
- jonny bear